Why can’t Christians see the beauty of life randomly appearing on Earth then evolving from simple to complex?

Forcing myself to suspend my natural skepticism and believe that an invisible god made life appear out of nowhere by speaking it into existence is something that I’ll never be able to do. To me, life randomly appearing on Earth over a billion years ago then gradually evolving over billions and billions of generations, each generation slightly more complex than the last, is a beautiful thing. It makes me appreciate life more and accept my place in a long chain of life nurtured by this planet, our home. Why can’t Christians see life like this? Why do they have to force themselves to believe lies that were made up by sbags who wanted to get rich controlling scared and gullible people and preventing them from ever learning the truth?